It'll be Alright.

The peace of Christ.

As I spend my time here in YWAM San Francisco, I’ve been stretched more than I have in my entire life.  Face to face with the darkness of the streets; many of these people know more Bible memorization than I do, and still yet are bound down by addiction, and seemingly schema of modal perception that causes them to remain in the emotionally and physically impoverished place they’re in.  Had to rationalize, if you ‘know’ the truth, how can you not turn away from evil?  Problems I’ve never faces in Ohio; people smoking crack pipes right outside out door; Seemingly constant presence of the people you minister to, as they spend time in our doors from 9-5, and ask for numerous things in an often privileged way after hours.  Sometimes it’s not easy ministering to people whom God has assured you are His creation that He loves and created fearfully and wonderfully, when they daily test the bounds of what that means with further degradation of behavior.  Portioned along with the fact that much of the work that I do here is for the base, and seemingly sometimes not with the base; writing, editing and formatting the newsletters, of which donors and ministry supporters see yet sometimes not staff here; creating systems for better workflow, which are often at first resented as an unwanted change before they are seen for their efficiency.  Life is not always easy out here on the front line.  Though we are champions for Christ, our land is one of dark, heavily spiritually oppressive atmosphere, that sometimes seemingly will seek to destroy us.  Or at least I feel it.  

The peace of Christ;  I have to keep reminding myself.  No matter what hardship I face, I have come to a point of realization that if it is my choice to rest in the peace of Christ, I can do so at any time.  Most of the time it’s my own desire to deprive myself of it out of a false sense that it’s not there, or I can’t reconcile myself.  But Christ constantly prompts me, and gives me reminder that His peace is mine to have.  I have to keep reminding myself, rest in Christ’s peace.  It will be alright.